Further Down

falling away from me
Away from me,
Dont Hesitate lest i be free
Let me be free
Beating me down
Down down
Further into hells playground

JS Clemons

Nothing Does Change

I sit here begging for grace

In my head though demons give chase

I go on knees and begin to pray

yet nothing around me does change

 

JS Clemons

Ode to a friend

I wonder if you could now see our tears

would you have confided to us your fears

if you could feel our pain and strife

would you have still taken your life

i know your with the angels

and dancing by Gods side

and though were down here mourning

we know your in a better place tonight

 

JS Clemons

Heavens Horizon

I’ve been wandering into heavens horizon

exiled from friend and family

on these streets I’m just barely surviving

crying out “Please don’t forget me”

These chains of misery are binding

to which I fear there is no key

So I keep numbing myself with all these poisons

trying to forget they all left me

 

J.S.Clemons

Like a whisper

and soon he would forever fade into the brisk night wind on a new moon

a whisper fleeing cold blue lips fleeting into the breeze never to be heard

A shadow dancing dimly and fading into the pale starlight

a solemn life released from the sorrows of the busy sun blazed days.

freedom gained from the chains of expectations and demands

solace earned after an eternity of disappointing friendships and relationships

judgment to be cast from the maker and the maker alone

 Joshua Clemons 09 16 17

Letter to God

Dear God

 I wish u could just let me take back time
I would even give back this gift of rhyme
If only to have chance to turn away
 From that fucking needlepoint that day

A lil kiss a pinch and sting
 Ball and chain like a wedding ring
 See at first it was like pure love 
Nothing before took me to skies above 
We danced and partied all damn day 
nightime it was the same thing 

A covenant under black masse
 Rituals and enchantments she cast 
My temple decaying its walls collapsing 
Giving tithes for synthetic blessing
 And the cost went skyward each time
Till the barter became my own lifeline


bathed my holylight in carnal sin 
She separated family and friends
Convinced me I didn't need my job 
Motivations she slowly robbed 
Withered away and confused 
Left empty and burnt minds fuse 
And yet I beg her each every day
For her love to still stay 

Well now its time for last sacrifice
A dose to Rival a Demons blight 
Lay out my arm and let it bleed.
pain and pleasure my last creed 
Final beat, breath, losing sight
Dear god please take my soul tonight

Dissapoitingly yours,
Joshua Clemons 2-3-17

Revison 1

Away

Broken and torn
My spirit's worn
This battle lay siege
Gone the days of prestige
I Sacrificed time
To gain a lifeline
Bartered all away
To hear voice praise
A single touch
Did I ask to much
Is this not enough
This War is rough
Escape deaths grip
My scars become ripped
Blood did flow
My love you'll  know
Be Bathed in lust
A Rituals trust
One moment of sin
My Soul I spend
Collapsing light
Deaths a beautiful sight

Joshua Clemons 2-1-17

Aftermath

 

your cars still parked out front
yet your not even close to here
and dammit the clothes in the house
leave your smell in the air

iam looking at the aftermath
when i see our photos on the floor
when it dawns on me
Baby were worth fighting for

i see inside that broken mirror
a reflection of all my mistakes
well babe i now swear
no longer will i take and take

now iam looking at myself
iam looking back again
trying to figure out
how we can make this a win

i fell asleep to our favorite song
dreaming of your smile
waking up felling wronged
sobriety…. its been awhile

but i will do more than just that this time
i ll move to the corners of the earth
if only the chance to read you this rhyme
and bestow you the love I know that your worth.

 Joshua Clemons 7-19

Beyond the Grave

I wish you could see the way I do
and feel this hidden world around;
i wish you could touch the angels
and hear his glorious voice abound.

for then you would understand me
and I would in turn forever be with you;
then you would finally make begin to realize
loving you was all that I tried to do

I see the patterns across these days
encryption’s behind a hidden realm;
the darkened passages of another life
Reveal your soul was always hell bound

Now is time to open up your tired eyes
Stand and fight for Truth till end of days
Know though physically I am not at your side
My everlasting love flourishes from beyond the grave

Joshua Clemons 7/12/2105

To My B.E.A.YOU tiful

its been a journey and not long ago
a special date lead to a future life
we have endured hell and strife
but there has been moments of pure love
so here I humbly pray to the creator above

i get on knees and I say
i pray that he heals our hearts
and removes that which is ripping us apart
i pray that a peace calms our troubled souls
to that i say i would pay any toll

let it be know that its all true
my love for you runs wild and free
and i hope we could build our own famly tree
Forgive me and I shall forgive you
and with this baby lets make a love anew